Idle hands and idle mind are dangerous things.
For every mile of road, there are two miles of ditch.
Awareness is permanent within this lifetime. It may be DNA/RNA based, pruned off each generation and passed on through the young.
With meditation comes awareness and a knowing of the truths. These insights come from either realization or educational and then conformation- adoption - through mediation.
Ego is impermanent, and impersonal, imposed by the mad collective thinking. letting go of ego is humility.
We need willingness for many things, but we first need the time free, distraction free space, space to just be. Willingness implies choice; time and space to do, and for the action to become a priority.
Life must be slow enough to see the space between the phrases or between the words. Such is our natural cadence of speaking, thinking, writing.