Monday, August 5, 2013

Abiding Commitment to Change

A deep and abiding commitment to change, a willingness to change significant fundamental personality behaviors is the essence of  recovery. The program suggest that a god is required, which is bullshit. We need to develop or adopt a philosophy of life to enact real change. Acceptance of a god could be a change, but that is not dealing with reality.

Removal of our drug of choice leaves a hole in our lives. Our best solution to life so far has been our drug of choice, our best solution yet, to get us out of our dissatisfactory {(replace with any one), sadness, boredom, anxiety, suffering, frustrating, meaningless} thinking and lives. The work of recovery is to find {any one of... pleasure, meaning, purpose, joy, satisfaction} in an active balanced life.

If life has a purpose, it may be to create or develop the species, or support the same. This assumes division of labor and acceptance of our role in that endeavor. It is what most of us do, a job that someone is willing to pay for, or grow a bit of food... whatever we do.

Life after death is a concept that removes the finality of death, but it is only a concept, beleive it and it will help you mentally, but nothing changes in reality. Do not believe it and now we need to leave our mark on the world in life. The standard mark is our name chiseled in a rock, but if we want to leave a bigger mark, write a book detailing what we learned along the way that is not written elsewhere. I have written engineering reports that will not likely survive, but oh well, I will likely have the standard mark in the world, a grave stone.

Now that I have depressed everyone, there is only up to go. Desires are necessary to drive us, else we would just sit, and do little. But which desires do we need to develop? not the ones for food, we cannot be satiated, that is the problem. We do not need more consumer goods, electronics, or the like. We can hardly use what we have, and find little value, utility, or satisfaction in them or there use.

Desire to learn is always available, but this should be an instrumental desire, not a terminal desire. What utility or interest is there in the classic greek and roman philosophy other that to pick it over, magpie style, for bits and pieces that can be used today, or religion for that matter?

Do we have free will of just free violation? Can we manipulate our will or just our violation? If it is only violation, I could walk away, or drive away, but if I could control my will, I could will myself to not eat. Therefore, in my case, with respect to food, I do not have free will, but must bow to the subconscious, physical or physiological demand for food, or go away.    

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